Doors...

I've find myself in a season of missing Garrison.  I think I am mourning that adult to adult relationship that we can't have.  The end/beginning of the school year has a way of doing that for me.  I also see Grant stepping into adulthood and some of the same personality traits that he and Mark share.  I miss that connection that Garrison and I shared of being first-borns. 

We find ourselves at a new chapter in Grant's life.  Autism and childhood is a different world than autism and adulthood.   Grant shared that Mark and I were his best friends the other day.  While I love him with all my heart, I want him to have that connection with peers. The social world can be a struggle for Grant--it was in his school years and continues to be now.  I wonder at times if that is why he has such a love of Acting.  Things make sense.  This is my line, that is your line and now we sing a song.....

I was reminded last night of one of my favorite sounds.  The sound of the door closing when your child returns home.  I remember that with Garrison coming home from work or a date--all is well now--we are all under the same roof.  I can rest easy.  Last night Grant got a ride home from "Joseph's" director and husband...his first door click at age 19...

It brought about the thought of when we return home to God...does He hear that door/gate open and close and think--Ahhh, my child is safely home.  At 19, for Garrison, his door on earth closed and opened in Heaven.   How I wish he was here with us, but since he isn't, glory to God that he is in the best HOME ever.

Now to help Grant navigate the door that leads to the world...can't say that I know what lies on the other side and what the time-frame will look like for him.  I just trust that the same Lord who holds one son in heaven, holds the other son in his arms on Earth.