One day I'll learn to post these together-but today is not that day.
A friend at church asked if I had ever heard this song and then promptly went to her car and let me borrow the cd. I hope you are blessed by Laura Story's "blessings"...
Over the last several months I had not been feeling well. Not physically--but emotionally...For whatever reason I decided to stay in this place. I thought somehow maybe it could make me empathize with Garrison--the hopelessness he felt, the belief that life is not going to get any better. As I've started to recover, why would I chose this? My husband and friends suggested I get help and gently reminded me. My husband shared that I would suggest to others in the state I was to go and get help. And yet, I decided to stay in this pit. One friend suggested I write in my blog and I told her--I have no words. When asked about counseling, my reply was the same--I have no idea what to say. Enough was enough and my husband scheduled an appointment. And I really didn't have a lot of words--a lot of tears-but not many words--but it was a start. I realize now the irony now of a blog titled, I'm just saying...and I could say nothing. My pattern in life has been if I am able to write--to express how I feel (instead of being angry, bitter or sad and stuffing those feelings) then life feels right to me. I am glad to say that through counseling and a med change my life is on the mend.
This song has blessed me and reminded me of God's love and faithfulness--they are constant--even when we don't know how to feel them. I'm just sayin'...
